OnlyGrace

“Fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can’t breath without them”- T.Swift

Weekly Update 2 November 13, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 10:50 PM

Here is my weekly update for you all that I sent to chris. I’m too lazy to make it sound like a real blog as opposed to a letter meant for someone else, but it’s the best I can do. Sorry its SO long!

 

Sorry, this is a book.

Chris,
I’m so glad you have your computer back too! Now, when I see and talk to your friends all we talk about is if we got an e-mail from you or got to talk to you and exchange info that we’ve gotten from you. It’s kind of funny. I sent Mary Noble all your e-mail I’ve gotten from you and the ones your parents got that they forwarded to me. She was so excited. She can’t wait to e-mail you she said! Deborah was telling me about getting and sending you e-mails too. It’s all we talked about for like 20 minutes before caregroup this week. And JP said she’s excited to have a skype date with you soon! Hopefully as you get more settled with a more concrete schedule we’ll be able to find a time to do that as well. I almost always have mine on so if you happen to get on and wanna chat, feel free to call. I’m not always at my computer, but it’s always on. I have a friend who lives in MO and we’ve been using it a lot-we love it!
So how’s teaching going? I can’t wait to hear what you’ve been doing, what they’re learning, etc. It will be so awesome when you get better communicate with them via English and everything. How big are your classes? Is it harder/easier than you thought? It’s such an awesome opportunity that you get to do this!
A lot of my friends from school ask me weekly if I’ve gotten e-mails from you because my friends at school all know that you’re gone because I talk about it a lot. And the Monday that you left I was like an almost mess all day in my classes, so if I’m extra happy they ask if it’s because I got an e-mail from you, haha. And my friend Liz has actually been to China 4 times. She goes every summer and does a lot of what you’re doing-teaching English to orphans. She loves hearing any updates I get from you.
I am fine from my accident. Since I was sitting still at a red light (as was the bus), I wasn’t hit with any force hardly at all, so I’m totally okay-but it was kind of scary the next time I had to go to that intersection! We had a rental for a week, but have to return it today. The buses’ insurance was paying for it since it was her fault, but now she’s disputing it so they’re taking it back while they do the investigation to make sure it was her fault. They should be able to tell exactly just what happened by simply looking at where and how the damage is on my car. The story she made up couldn’t have happened and resulted in my car looking the way it does. So that’s gonna be a couple more days until my car gets looked at and everything. I pray they don’t total it-you know I have a special attachment to it! ….Plus, I want SOME car soon, driving a mini-van to school is beyond humiliating! And it’s a gas-guzzler.
On Monday I am meeting with the counselor at my school to get some information from her about my supposed Foreign Language Learning Disability. She is going to have my tell her what’s going on and she’s gonna get me kick-started with all the info about where I can get the test and such. I also sign up for my classes on Monday morning. The tentative plan is to take psych 101, music (I need a fine arts gen ed.), Spanish 2 (if needed), and political science, and then take Stats online. That’s a total of only five classes, instead of six like this semester, and 4 will be on campus and then stats online. The four classes I’m taking at school are all going to be Tues/Thurs, so that’s super exciting. I’ll be in class from 8-2:10, so that’s not even that bad. I would still be working and such as well.
So, more updates:
Sunday I went to Mountain. It was a good service, they were talking about suffering. It was okay, but nothing I hadn’t already heard before. The guy sitting next to me was really nice. He was joking about my jeans with holes and how I probably spent lots of money on them, blah blah blah. Then afterwards he was laughing about the girl behind us who was singing SO loud but incredibly awful. As we were leaving he asked if I went there regularly. I told him I didn’t and that I usually go to Grace. He told me he really loves it there and I should come again. It was nice of him, especially since I was sitting all alone, haha. I didn’t do too much else that day of interest.
Monday I had school and babysitting. I had an exam in sociology. I honestly just didn’t feel like studying and I got two A’s on the other tests in that class and I hadn’t studied for them either. I didn’t feel so hot about the test after taking it, but it was fine. I also had to meet with some girls from my spanish class to do a group project (yay! NOT). Then I babysat and wound up getting to bed late.
Tuesday was the usual-school and work and caregroup. Actually, it wasn’t a usual Tuesday at all. I got to school, had to skip my first class, fitness, because I forgot my exercise shoes and you can’t work out without them. So I just went to the library and worked on a project for that class that’s due next week. The rest of the school day was normal. Oh yeah, and Tuesdsay my bio teacher was trying to teach us how some people are born gay because of such and such chromosomes and blah blah blah. Oh yes, and some people are born transvestites too-just so you know. She was kind of adding this in at the end of class, so I didn’t have time to argue with her, but I so wanted to. Maybe next time she brings it up. Spanish was awful, as usual. Then I went to work which was okay, as usual. I was actually able to click with one of my 5th grade girls because she had to go to the nurse which is half way across campus, so I walked her there. Me and this girl sometimes rub each other the wrong way, but we got to just chat and talk to and from the nurses, and for the rest of that day, as well as Wed and Thurs, we just really got along. I was so thankful for that. Then I went to caregroup..We just sang songs then broke up into different groups. Mine is me, Sher, Rachel Bickel, and Caity. Me and Caity are partners and then Sher and Rach.
Wednesday was fine. School, work, etc. I got an 85 on my sociology test, so I’m happy with that. I now don’t have to pay attention for the rest of the semester because I got 3 good grades and he only gives us 4 tests, dropping the lowest grade. So I’m just gonna stick with my 98, 104.5, and 85 and not even try to care about the last test. Took like 3 naps that day and was still exhausted.
Thursday, yesterday, was also normal. School, work. Bio was interesting again. I love my teacher, I really do. She’s crazy and extremely hard, but I love her. She’s so down-to-each and chill about everything. Our class has been cut at least in half because so many people have dropped it in fear of failing (which is a realistic fear for most of them…). Now my teacher loves us who has stuck it out and it’s getting a little bit easier now. I’m her pet. I do everything for her. I’ve never missed a class, passed every test (with the highest and second highest grades!), and done all the homework. I also run down the the 5th floor (from the 8th) just about weekly to get something she happens to have forgotten in her office. This week, after class, I stayed a little bit after to talk to her and finish something up I was doing for her. I had to get everyone to fill out a form then I had to collect them, count them, put them in this envelope and take them to her boss. She was asking what my major is and when I told her Social Work she got a huge smile and told me that she can tell that I’ll be great at that and she can tell that I really care about people. I wa told that I’m a pleasure to have in her class and she was really hoping that I wouldn’t drop this class when everyone seemed to be dropping it like flies. She said that her mom wasn’t so great, so she had to see a social worker often, and she says the world could use more. She told me it’s a hard job, but it will be rewarding. She loved her social worker, she said. That was so encouraging and good to hear. Put a smile on my face. Work was fine also. Nothing exciting to report there!

Today, Friday, I went to the Dr. Since I’m so tired all the time, I wanted to check it out, make sure I’m healthy. Plus, I wanted my flu shot and I haven’t been to the Dr. in at least 2 years. I went, waited for what seemed like forever, and then the Dr. called me in. She asked what’s wrong and said I look very good and healthy. I grew a liiiiiittle since the last time I was there! So I told her that I’m basically exhausted all the time. Not just like a little tired, but to the point of exhaustion. I told her I get lots of sleep, etc. She was like “oh, well if you’re taking a fitness class, you should have more energy.” I told her that only makes it worse and i’m just exhausted after 1 hour of working out. She didn’t really care. I also told her about my headaches and hair falling out a ton, which she completely shrugged off. I told her it’s not normal that I’m THIS tired. I sleep well, eat pretty much okay, and I do all the right things-so what’s wrong? She said she would check my blood, but I’m fine. I was really frustrated because I’m getting to the point that I honestly can’t do ANYTHING but what I have to do (school, work, etc) because I’m too exhausted and just want to sleep. She told me not to sleep more than 8 hours a night. Bull crap. I can’t function on 8 hours anymore. I told her I would fall asleep driving if I did that, but she just shrugged it off and told me no more than 8 hours. I’m not going to listen to that. The whole visit she kept saying how healthy I look. I looked awful today. I walk around pretty much shuffling because I’m so tired that even just the everyday things make me tired and I take multiple naps a day (I’ve taken 2 so far today). I asked her if I should start taking vitamins (I gotta do SOMETHING about this!). She said I should take centrum Jr. or something like that every day. So i’ll have to get that. Oh yes, and my Dr. did say that if the blood work shows nothing that i should maybe try changing my birth control because that could be making me tired. I don’t think that makes sense since i’ve been on the same one for over 6 months and this fatigue just started within the month.  This evening I hung out with JP. She says hi! We had a good time. We did homework and watched murder mystery shows, haha. I’m headed to bed now! Hopefully I’ll hear back from you in not too long :)

I love you and hope that you’re having a great time. I miss you tons. One of the hardest times was on Tuesday when I was on my way home from work.  I got out my phone and went to my contacts and started to go to your name then I remembered you are in China. I put my phone down and I was so sad. I miss you tons. Oh, and it’s so soon that you get to open your first card :D

Love,
Maggie

P.S. I don’t know if your mom asked you this already, but she said that if I remembered to ask you because she kept meaning to ask and kept forgetting-she wants to know what you’re eating and stuff and if you’re liking it…or something like that :)

 

Weekly update! November 8, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 8:19 PM

So, I’ll give you the (looooong) update that I sent Christina this week. I plan on sending her e-mail updates weekly, so hopefully I can pretty much just C+P them on here so that I can keep my blog updated!

I was so excited to hear from Chris. I thought it would be a long time before she would be able to get back to me. It was such a blessing to get the e-mail.
I’m doing better! I was missing Chris so much the first two days. I pretty much stayed in my room and cried. But it was good. Other things came to a head during that time too, so I was able to kind of let them come to a surface and deal with them as my emotions were going crazy. I am just now getting over the post-crying headache-that’s been KILLER.
Funny you ask about next summer (in Chris’ e-mail she asked if I was considering coming to China with her dad on the trip he’s leading next summer)-I’m avoiding that question. You’re the 5th person this week to ask me what I’m doing next summer. I have no idea. I so want to go to China. My mom really thinks that if I have the chance to go that that is something I should do. But I know I can’t go to China and do Beachmont. But I loved beachmont so much. And it’s hard because both are ministries, so it will just come down to what God wants for me next summer. And if I don’t do Beachmont, I will def. need a summer job.So, I have no idea. I have far too many things to figure out before thinking about next summer.
Classes…are okay. It’s just a lot of work. I’m the “goody-two-shoes” who does all of the readings and assigned work that probably isn’t completely necessary. Call me a freshman, I like to just say I’m hardworking ;) Spanish is still kicking my butt. I have to do a speech in spanish in a couple weeks which I am nervous about. I got the highest grade in my class on our bio test! it was only an 84, but I was happy. She told me she will curve my grade at the end because she knows the tests are so hard and thinks I’m a “great student who is just bad at taking tests.” She said as long as I dont do horribly on the final, she will make sure I have an A. So that’s super exciting. All other classes are going well. Theatre has been cool because it’s mostly discussion in class and my teacher (and most classmates) are very liberal and my teacher likes to make fun of the Bible and be sarcastic about Christianity. My Savior has been faithful to give me boldness and words to say when she makes statements that are extremely offensive to me. She really likes me, so she really does respect when I stand up for what I believe, but it’s still frustrating when she says the rude things that she says. So instead, I pray for her.
I am all signed up to take speech 101 in the winter. It’s 12 3.5 hour classes and I’m getting three credits. Nothing gets better than that (except getting an e-mail from Chris on a Saturday night!). I’m also trying to take psych in the winter, but the class is currently full. So we’ll see if I can get into that class.
So, I was in a car accident Friday (yesterday). A school bus hit me :( I was following it for a couple streets and noticed that it was driving a little funny. Also, BCPS were closed on Friday, so I wondered what that bus was doing/where it was going. Anyway, when we pulled up to a light the bus driver pulled her bus into the left/straight lane. I wanted to go right, so pulled into the right turn lane. It was legal for me to make a turn on red, but I couldn’t see past the bus, so just waited. Next thing I know, the bus starts turning right, completely smooching me :( I just screamed, I was so scared. The bus stopped, then started moving again until I laid on my horn. So I called my mom, as calm as can be, and told her I was in an accident with a school bus and she needed to come get me. I was only about 5 minutes from home, if that, so my dad came quickly. I kept composed the entire time! I had to wait in my car for what seemed like forever because since the bus turned right and took my car with it, I was totally pushed up against the side of the bus, unable to open my driver’s side door. I called the cops and they came to help us out. They couldn’t figure out how to get my car out of the way because it was partially intertwined into the bus (the bus door, for instance, was under my bumper so i was essentially attached to the bus and my mirror was all caught in the gas opener thing on the bus). So finally they got my car outta the mess and i was able to climb out. It was freezing cold and I only had a hoodie on because I was going to school and my school is so hot. I froze! We did all the pictures and insurance stuff and all and then I finally got to go home. My car is in kinda bad shape. Tire has a leak, front bumper is pretty bad, door doesn’t open more than a foot, front lights are busted, my mirror on the drivers side is screwed, etc, etc. It’s confusing though because Baltimore County Public Buses are independently insured, so it’s been hard doing the insurance gig because it is much different than normal. Plus, being a minor, everything is much more difficult. So that’s that. Right now they gave us a rental, which I can’t drive being a stupid minor, and I take my car Monday to get an estimate and hopefully a fat check ;D My plan: get as LITTLE fixed as possible then keep the extra money for schooling and what not. Winter classes are not covered by fin. aid, so it’s coming outta my pocket :( So, that’s my fun story of the week.
I have been slightly…off…lately. I am not sick, so that’s good, but something isn’t right. There are all these strange littler things happening and it’s getting weird. My mom set up a dr.’s appt for me for next Friday to try to see what’s wrong. My mom thinks it’s a thyroid problem based on my symptoms, but I’m hoping not. I think I have a vitamin deficiency, most likely Potassium, but I’m not too concerned. The main things I want to get taken care of are my hair falling out a lot again (boo!), weird headaches, and feeling beyond exhausted all the time. I get 9 hours of sleep, maybe 8 once a week or so, but I still fall asleep reading, writing, anything. I’m so exhausted and not rightfully so. I get enough hours of sleep! I know I’m stressed sometimes and kinda busy, but even this week I didn’t babysit at all and only worked my normal amount, and I’ve been more tired than ever. So hoooopefully next Friday’s blood test will be able to tell me what I need adjusted. So feel free to pray about that too :)

That was my e-mail I sent Chris, except a little edited. So anyway, there’s your update of the week!
This week is a busy one coming up-classes, babysitting, and a group project meeting tomorrow, classes, work, and small group tues, classes and work wednesday and thursday, and friday i have 1 class, dr.’s appt., and then homework date with JP. :)

 

“Today isn’t goodbye, it’s a ’see you later’” November 8, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 8:10 PM

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Last Sunday was one of the most purely sad days of my entire life. One of my best friends in the whole entire world left the states for China :( I’m so happy for Christina, she’s doing what she’s always dreamed of doing. After many complications, she has arrived safely. Because things kept not working out and her departure dates kept getting pushed back, I was in denial that she was actually leaving. So when Christina and I actually had to say goodbye, I was a mess. She came to church so that’s where I said bye to her. Before we even gathered around her to pray for her trip, I was sobbing. I was so raw-ly (no, its not a word) sad that day, I couldn’t contain it. I cried the entire day. It was not all sad though. I know she will be back. I got to spend the whole day with her almost on Saturday, so that was great to help her get ready for her trip and have so many laughs. A couple weeks ago we were setting up her Ipod, so we spent about 8 hours sitting on the couch laughing and talking while figuring out that stupid thing. And Sunday we sat together for a few minutes when we had to say goodbye and she reminded me that things are going to be different, but we’ll still talk. She reminded me that she’s proud of me. She told me to draw near to God in this time and to be brave. So, with everything in me, I’m trying! It’s still terribly sad and I miss her so much. But I’m being taught so much through her leaving.

  • God is everything. I mean, everything. Lately I’ve been stripped of a lot of things on Earth. It hurts so much, but it’s really such a blessing. God has been all I had. When God is all I have, I realize that He is all I need.
  • God was preparing me for Christina’s departure long before I knew. I don’t want to go into the details of how God has prepared me for this time, but it’s incredible when I realize how soverign God is.
  • People care. So many people have been so kind to pray for and with me, keep in touch to see how I’m doing, encourage me, and just be there for me.
  • Along with that, some people don’t care. When you’re openly suffering for all to see, when people can see your pain and have the opportunity to care for you, that’s when you see who cares. I learned who is and who is not through this experience. It’s been hard, but good all the time.
  • Crying give you headaches for today. I cried ALL day Sunday, and most of Monday. I had a headache for about 4 days after that. And my eyes BURNED if I shut them! So, I wont cry that much for a LONG while (and hopefully I wont have reason unless it’s happy tears!).
  • Along with crying giving you headaches, crying is so refreshing. It brought up a lot of other emotions and things that I had been failing to deal with, so it was good to shed tears over the things I had been putting aside or putting on the back burner. I think I’m cried-out for a good while, though.

So, that’s that. Christina sent an e-mail to her family. Her computer hasn’t been working so far, so she had to use someone else’s. Hers has been fixed though, so she should be getting it soon I would think. I sent her an e-mail, as FB, Twitter, and blogs are all blocked for her at the time. She replied yesterday. I was elated. She said she’s doing well and can’t wait to have her computer so that she can talk more often. She told me two things that people can be praying for. She started teaching English to the Chinese today! So she def. needs prayer for that. And a boy’s adoption is having trouble going through, so that is a big prayer request. So, if you want to be praying for Christina, that’s how you can pray!

I miss her, but know that it will get better. There will be hard times to come, but I know that God is preparing me for them too :) So, Sunday was not a goodbye, but a “see you later” day. But still a sad day nonetheless.

 

So, that’s my update about Christina!

 

I feel bad. October 16, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 10:59 PM
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I should be out in that driveway stopping you
Tears should be rolling down my cheek
And I don’t know why I’m not falling apart
Like I usually do
And how the thought of losing you’s not killing me
I feel bad
That I can stand here strong
Cold as stone, Seems so wrong
I can’t explain it
Maybe it’s just
I’ve cried so much
I’m tired and I’m numb Baby I hate it
I feel bad that I don’t feel bad

I can let myself be angry over wasted time
And sad about just throwing love away
Yeah I almost wish my heart was breaking
But I cant lie
All I want to do is turn the page
I feel Bad

That I can stand here strong
Cold as stone, Seems so wrong
I can’t explain it
Maybe it’s just
I’ve cried so much
I’m tired and I’m numb Baby I hate it
I feel bad

That I don’t feel bitter, alone
I just feel its time, its time to move on
I just gotta move on and on and on and on

Yeah
Baby it’s just I’ve cried so much
I’m tired and I’m numb baby I hate it
I feel bad that I don’t feel bad
No, I don’t feel bad

 

All For You-Starfield October 15, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 6:44 PM

Song I was listening to on the way home from work :)
Nothing compares to
Life I have in You
Nothing of this
world satisfies
So, I want to let go
I want to let You know
All that I have to
give is Yours

Here I am
As gold to the fire
I will surrender to Your hand
To this place
Lord, I have come
ready for Your touch

It’s all for You
It’s all for You
I’m letting go
I’m letting go

What is it in me
That hangs on for so long
Why do I fight the
tears that come?
I work so hard to
Keep in control when
All that I want is to let go

I’ll take this life
And lay it down
I’m letting go
I’m letting go
My hopes and dreams
Here at Your feet
I’m letting go
I’m letting go

 

Life is like…driving home from work? October 15, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 6:37 PM

When I was driving home from work, I had a lot on my mind. Last night was…awful, to under-exagerate. When I’m driving I always have my iPod on, unless I need to hear the traffic to decide how to drive home. Anyway, so I heard the traffic, decided to go the back roads home because the highways had major traffic. So I put my GPS on and told it go take me home. I then turned on my iPod and started rocking out. No, not really. I just put my “recently added” playlist and soaked in the truth that the lyrics provided me with. And, of course, the one day I take back roads home, I hit EVERY light. Literally I probably went through 50 or 60 lights and only 2 were green. I’m not exagerating- TWO! I was getting very frustrated. But then I was thinking about how this drive home was kinda of like life. I chose my path on my own, with some wisdom given to me by the traffic people on the radio. This is kinda like how the Bible, and the Gospel in the Bible, led me to Christ. Then, I typed it into my GPS and asked it how to get home, avoiding certain things (traffic, highways). This reminded me of how I turn to the Bible for guidance of how to live my life, avoiding sin and the things of this world. But I still have to drive, I still have to get home. It’s not the driving I’m avoiding (or rather, being IN the world), but rather just certain roads (or, I want to be IN the word but not OF the world). Then, as I said, I hit every light. I was stopped, staring at a red light. I was frustrated because my GPS had told me an arrival time. Sometimes we have misconceptions of how the world should be.  I think that it should be easy all the time and fun and comfortable and all about me. But, there are other drivers and there are rules I must follow, just like in life there are others I must be considerate of and who will make mistakes when “driving” and I have to choose to respond in one way or another. I was getting frustrated because I didn’t want to have to sit anymore at red lights. It was then that I was reminded that God is in control, and He choses which “lights” are red in my life, what “detours” I have to take, what “lights” I can drive right through, and which ones I have to proceed through, but with caution and wisdom. Also on my drive home it was raining. My car isn’t very good, so my wheels were turning ways I didn’t want and I was close to loosing control of my steering, and my brakes were very touch-and-go. I was scared. This made me think about my faith. I was thinking about what my life would be life if my faith were like my car, and I believe it is. I don’t have ABS breaks, and my car was loosing traction. When “life” “rains” it seems I am the same as my car. I’m tempted to loose control, I almost crash, I get scared, and I don’t know how to stop. If my faith were like a nice, safe, car, then maybe I wouldn’t be so scared when the “storms” of life came. Anyway, that’s how I think life resembles my drive home :)

 

On the Ride-Altered October 14, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 6:21 PM

:( altered lyrics.

We didn’t have to try
To think the same thoughts
We just had a way
Of knowing everything was gonna be ok

We’d laugh ’til we cried
Read each others minds
Lived with a smile
Made it all worthwhile
Made it all worthwhile

Life had moments hard to describe
Felt great and felt alive
Now we’re coming down from this
Mountain we were on

Always knew that we’d be fine
felt great and felt alive
Now we’re coming down from this
Mountain we were on
The feeling was so clear
And it was crazy up there
Life was amazing with you on the ride

We didn’t wanna sleep
Just wanted to stay up
There was so much to say
And not enough hours in the day

We’d laugh ’til we cried
Read each others minds
Lived with a smile
Made it all worthwhile
Made it all worthwhile

No time to be lazy
The journey was perfect
The pace was so crazy
The race was so worth it
You said I’ll be with you
We’ll do this together
Always together

Life has moments hard to describe
Feeling great and feeling alive
Now wer’e coming down from this
Mountain we were on
(Mountain we were on)

 

The Words I would say! Sidewalk Prophets October 12, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 7:57 PM

i know, it’s been forever.  Sorry. But I just HAVE to post this because i love it so much. This is a horrible  version, but i love this song so much i cant stop listening to it.

Three in the morning,
And I’m still awake,
So I picked up a pen and a page,
And I started writing,
Just what I’d say,
If we were face to face,
I’d tell you just what you mean to me,
I’d tell you these simple truths,

Be strong in the Lord and,
Never give up hope,
You’re going to do great things,
I already know,
God’s got His hand on you so,
Don’t live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don’t forget why you’re here,
Take your time and pray,
These are the words I would say,

Last time we spoke,
You said you were hurting,
And I felt your pain in my heart,
I want to tell you,
That I keep on praying,
Love will find you where you are,
I know cause I’ve already been there,
So please hear these simple truths,

Be strong in the Lord and,
Never give up hope,
You’re going to do great things,
I already know,
God’s got His hand on you so,
Don’t live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don’t forget why you’re here,
Take your time and pray,
These are the words I would say,

From one simple life to another,
I will say,
Come find peace in the Father,

Be strong in the Lord and,
Never give up hope,
You’re going to do great things,
I already know,
God’s got His hand on you so,
Don’t live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don’t forget why you’re here,
Take your time and pray,
Thank God for each day,
His love will find a way,
These are the words I would say

 

“If you have a phone, you have a lawyer!” May 21, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 11:23 AM

Saiontz, Kirk and Miles has now become just Saiontz and Kirk! I’m not sure what happened to miles though. To me and some others, this feels like a personal loss. We remember all the times we had together and will be mourning the loss for years to come. Leave any personal memories you have from Miles in the comment box.
Thank you.

 

Thankfulness May 20, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 8:36 PM

I told you I would post about each of these things. I like to keep my promises. So here goes number one.
-Learning not to complain -Thankfulness -2 YA messages that I haven’t yet posted -1 Sunday message I wanna blog about -College plans -Life in general/update from this month’s resolutions/plans for the summer.

I realized that I am so ungrateful. We all are, really. But I believe that I will never know how grateful I am to live in America. I have a family. I have a home. I have clothing and bedding and an education.  How much more could I want? And God, the Creator, made all these things. I am so blessed. I want to start praising Him more. So each day I want to wake up and think “Thank you God for waking me up this morning.” I want to pray more, with more thanksgiving. God, my Father, loves me and blesses me so much each and every day. I want to stop taking that for granted. And I’m working on it. And it’s great. It brightens my mood to think of all the things I’m thankful for :)  Okay, that’s all. Just wanted to put my thoughts out there.