Confusion.. May 22, 2007

Filed under: Friends — beyondtheoutside @ 7:08 PM

Hmm..where to start?
Well, I think people start going their separate ways sometimes. But does it have to be that way? I don’t think so. I mean, I know people that have had friends since they were like babies. A few people from church have been friends since college. So why do some people stick and others don’t? I mean, I see that like…Idk. Thats the thing….its all confusing. Like I have a friend that I think she and I are tight when we are with each other. But when we aren’t or are just chatting on the phone or something, its like something isnt just right, an attitude is there from both of us and its not like it used to be. I guess I’ve been seeing my need for God more so since this has been going on and I have a really close friend and a few others still. But still, I’m not gonna just let this relationship go down the drain…if I can help it anyway. I just wish we were as close as before. But…They don’t seem to want that so I guess I have to accept that.


Something I found… May 17, 2007

Filed under: other — beyondtheoutside @ 7:53 PM

“Sometimes you just can’t tell someone how you feel. Not just cause you don’t trust them, & not cause you think they will call you a freak. but cause you can never really find the right words to make them understand. &it makes you frustrated. People take things 100 different ways, & that’s why it’s so hard. But if what you’re trying to say, is meant to be said.. it will find a way to be understood” – I think it’s awesome that someone could write that!


Summer May 16, 2007

Filed under: other — beyondtheoutside @ 12:09 PM

Summer is here!!!! DONE SCHOOL!!!!
Wow. This school year went by so fast. Seems like just yesterday it started. But at the same time, I’m so ready to be done school. I still feel like I’m excited about going into highschool and I’m already done a year. Gosh, that was fast. UM, good things and bad things. I was able to keep my grades up and math went esp well. That was actually my BEST subject this year and usually I get a B or B- and this year the lowest grade I got on anything was a 93. So that was God’s grace to help me work hard and persist and just get it done! I also finished that subject first. Bad things…i lost patience with people in my classes a few times and numerous other things. But anyway, I’m glad it’s over. I’m already excited about next year. I’m especially excited about my Lit/Speech/Writing class with Mrs Tracy!! I cant wait for that! I was looking forward to doing aerobics, but not enough people were interested =[. Oh well. I am also looking forward to another year of math, hoping that goes well. I’ll be doing Biology, which I started this year, but switched 2 weeks into it so that I could do Chemistry (that my mom was teaching) instead. So again, I’ll be doing biology. yuck. But I am really excited because now all my friends will finally be in highschool and I’ll be doing a bunch of classes with them! Well, I’ll be doing Lit, Bio, Speech, History (not all of them are doing History), and Writing. I feel like they are doing something else with me, but I don’t remember.
This summer should be fun though! I will be going to India June 17th-July 1st. I will be JCing at Beachmont for 2 weeks this summer. I would’ve liked to do 4 weeks, but because of India, that wont happen. Julie and I wanna do this week long thing that is too hard to explain on here…And I am trying to get into this class on Thursday’s for an hour and a half. It’s a lyrical/excersize class. I want to take that. It shouldn’t be too hard on my knees. What else…Well, throughout the summer I’ll be @ Beachmont on Tuesdays when I can. We’re taking a day trip to Sandy Cove for the day because we usually go for a week for this conference every year. BUT, the day it starts is the day I get back from India. With jetlag and all…we just aren’t going to go. But I have friends I only see then, so I begged to go up for one day. So we will on Wednesday, even if I am alseep half the time =]. Anyway, along with that, I babysit my cousin some days in the summer. She is only 5 months. Well, six now. But so like this Sunday to Tuesday I’ll be at her house babysitting and spending the night. Her parents both work, so I babysit from like 6-5 =]. So that is right now helping me get to India and after India will just be some extra money which will be good. I also will be weekly cleaning for my grandmother on Mondays. Besides that I have a daily schedule for biking and running, until my knees and hip make me stop in pain, I’ll be doing that as well. So all in all, my summer is pretty busy.
What’s your summer like?!

Ok, I gotta go now! Talk to you all later!


Bible verses… May 9, 2007

Filed under: God showed/taught me/ect — beyondtheoutside @ 11:21 PM

This will involve comments!
Ok, so i want to know a couple things…

1) What is your favorite verse/passage or chapter in the whole Bible?
2) Why?
3) How long has it been your favorite verse?
4) How has it touched you personally or what does it mean to you?

Leave it!



PSALM 77! =] May 4, 2007

Filed under: God showed/taught me/ect — beyondtheoutside @ 3:03 AM


1 I cried out to God for help;
I cried out to God to hear me.

2 When I was in distress, I sought the Lord;
at night I stretched out untiring hands
and my soul refused to be comforted.

3 I remembered you, O God, and I groaned;
I mused, and my spirit grew faint.

4 You kept my eyes from closing;
I was too troubled to speak.

5 I thought about the former days,
the years of long ago;

6 I remembered my songs in the night.
My heart mused and my spirit inquired:

7 “Will the Lord reject forever?
Will he never show his favor again?

8 Has his unfailing love vanished forever?
Has his promise failed for all time?

9 Has God forgotten to be merciful?
Has he in anger withheld his compassion?”

10 Then I thought, “To this I will appeal:
the years of the right hand of the Most High.”

11 I will remember the deeds of the LORD;
yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago.

12 I will meditate on all your works
and consider all your mighty deeds.

13 Your ways, O God, are holy.
What god is so great as our God?


So that is like the most amazing thing like ever…haha. No, but seriously, if you are going through a trial or rough time, you should seriously like memorize those verses. They are the most important things ever! I love them so much.
“i cried out to God for help”- This helps me remember HE is my source of hope and comfort, HE is who I cry out to.
“when I was in distress, I sought the Lord”- sorta the same thing. But he says when in DISTRESS. I try to remember to go to God ESP when in distress!
I like this…
“you kept my eyes from closing; I was too troubled to speak”-He realizes GOD gave him that trial, something I don’t always see.
Then for a few verses he talks about I guess doubting God, questioning. But then he remembers the deeds of the Lord, how it is good. He considers the mighty deeds of God and meditates on his works!
He goes on to PRAISE God, during his trial.
He totally was trusting God, [a][m][a][z][i][n][g]

So anyway, any thoughts? Leave them please! Thanks Sarah for the idea of this Psalm, greatly appreciated!