One more thing.. July 24, 2007

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 4:48 PM

James 4:17 -“So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin.”(ESV)

Sherri and I were talking about this verse for a little while on…Sunday? Monday? One of the days are alll mixed up.
Anyway, we were just talking about how surprising, well, not really surprising…but whatever..How that is really like-wow. Because it’s not just when you do something WRONG that you’re sinning. Anytime you don’t do the RIGHT thing, that’s wrong! I could post forever about that…but I just want to leave it at that…Any thoughts?



Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 11:24 AM

17 These are waterless springs and mists driven by a storm. For them the gloom of utter darkness has been reserved. 18 For, speaking loud boasts of folly, they entice by sensual passions of the flesh those who are barely escaping from those who live in error. 19 They promise them freedom, but they themselves are slaves of corruption. For whatever overcomes a person, to that he is enslaved. 20 For if, after they have escaped the defilements of the world through the knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, they are again entangled in them and overcome, the last state has become worse for them than the first. 21 For it would have been better for them never to have known the way of righteousness than after knowing it to turn back from the holy commandment delivered to them. 22 What the true proverb says has happened to them: “The dog returns to its own vomit, and the sow, after washing herself, returns to wallow in the mire.” (ESV)

WOW. So think about that for a minute….Verse 21 states something very scary. It says that “for it would have been better for them never to have known the way of righteousness then after knowing it to turn back from the holy commandment…” Like, wow. For those who turn away from the Lord, after being saved, or knowing the way of truth, it would have been better for them to have NEVER known about the Lord….WOW. It makes me pretty sad.
More recently I’ve been coming across verses like that, stating how…well, things like vs 21 says. And it’s saddening. It really makes my spirit sad. I’m not sure why I’ve been coming across these verses, but I can only assume it’s a God-thing. It’s really cool though because it’s showing me what to avoid and it brings people to mind. And I’ve been able to talk about these verses with them, and they really start to think…
So I’m not sure what God’s doing, but it’s pretty coool…
Oh, and as far as the people he brings to mind, I was praying for them and then turned to Job 6:14 which says: 14 “A despairing man should have the devotion of his friends,
even though he forsakes the fear of the Almighty.” (NIV)
When I read that I was like “uh, God…what do you want me to learn from this?” And after reading it again and again, I was just sort of taught that God wants me to love those people and be devote to them as friends, even though they might not be fearing the Lord. But then I was really confused. I’m like, “hold up God. If these people aren’t fearing you, should these be the people I’m devoted to as friends? I mean, just last week you were showing me how I need to be careful and watch my life, including my friends…Please explain!!!” And i just heard one word:WISDOM. So I guess I can be devoted to them as friends, but being wise as to how much time I spend with them and how I act and speak and all around them….tricky situation.
Anyway, I’m outta here!



Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 11:13 AM

Obedience. Not an easy thing. Lately, in some things that have been going on, I’ve had NO clue what to do. So I’ve been taking those things to the Lord, asking for wisdom and direction and just help! And as I listen to Him and hear His replies, I know what I’m supposed to do, most of the time. Sometimes I have to wait for His answer, but usually it comes pretty quickly…But anyway, so when he gives me His answer and clearly tells me what I’m to do or say or where to go, I know that I am to obey him and just do it…But that’s not what I’ve always been wanting to do. I’ve been wrestling with God a little. Of course, because He’s God and He’s not, I find that I need to trust him and just do it. So I, sometimes reluctantly, do what he’s told me. And I’ve found that when I obey, especially willingly, that I am so blessed! The situation works out perfectly, even though I may not think it has. Like, I may think “oh great, I did what he told me and look what happened!” But its then I realize, I’m a human and I don’t see the whole plan. I was obedient and so therefore, God’s will is going to be lived out. It did work out just fine. In HIS timing. And the best part, He somehow got glory from that!
So I’ve been learning to live by what GOD wants for me, obeying him ALL the time, but I know that I totally fail a lot. But that’s ok, because I’m also being taught, slowly but surely, that God’s grace IS enough for EVERY part of my life. It’s really an exciting feeling to know that you’re doing the right thing and that it’s going to work out according to what the Lord wants! It also gives me a lot of joy, definitely something that we all love to have!




Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 11:03 AM

I have had some really tough situations lately…I’ve been learning that I need to trust God. Not just that I should, or that I know its the right thing, but that I NEED to trust Him. If I dont, I will breakdown and not be able to control myself…I just CAN’T not trust Him. It’s not an option. But of course, I don’t want to give up that control, so it’s been a battle…But I have been slowly giving it up to him, knowing there is no other way. And it’s amazing how relieved I feel when I do that! I don’t have time to post much else, but I needed to post something since it’s been SO long!


Something from Arpit July 15, 2007

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 7:57 PM

Hey all!
Arpit, an awesome guy from India, sent me this. I was telling home about something via an e-mail…and he wanted me to read this. It’s kind of cool though! Check it out!

(So I tried to just attach it…But I’m not sure if it worked…So let me know if it didn’t work and I’ll just paste it here…) =]

Praise the Lord, Something From Arpit



Filed under: Friends,God,Life — beyondtheoutside @ 7:39 PM

I’ve decided I refuse to conform to their ways. I kind of have two different groups. I am not really ‘fitting in’ with either lately. One is extreme one way and one is kinda extreme the other. I’ve decided I’m going to remain me. I mean, I’ve never been the one who like does what everyone else does just to ‘be cool’ or anything, but I REFUSE to EVER conform my ways to fit EITHER of their standards. I really dont want to compromise or anything. And if any of you, readers, sees that I am or thinks that I am, please tell me that!
But basically some friends want some things, some want others. I may wind up with no friends, or just a few, and that’s ok with me. My opinions and views and convictions are different from other peoples, but they are what I personally believe God has called me to do or not do and stuff. SO, as hard as this may be, this is my personal promise to myself, God and the world that I am going to remain myself and I am going to do my best to keep strong in and speak for what I believe.
I’ve noticed lately that I’ve really seen God’s grace helping me work to keep me from doing things and stuff, but I haven’t exactly been saying WHY I don’t do or say certain things. So I’m going to try harder to speak up and not just walk away from situations. I think it would be better if I spoke up, so that’s my goal.
Also, I think that I’m going to have to watch my heart that I don’t become self-righteous or just like…idk. I haven’t really seen myself slipping into that so far, but it’s definitely a temptation. I’m no better then anyone…but thats an entirely different topic…but I know that I need to be on guard against that!!
Well, as much of a battle against EVERYTHING of my flesh this will be, I’m going to try! And I know, that with God’s help and amazing grace and forgivness, I can grow. I am going to try and I ask that my dear readers would help me in this.
Thank you so much.
Praise the Lord,


Allie… July 12, 2007

Filed under: Friends — beyondtheoutside @ 3:19 AM

So I was gonna put this in my “sick” post, but it was getting really long and I figured people would rather read 2 kinda long ones then 1 forever long one…
I wanted to share about how being sick this time, after India, is going to be different from before India sicknesses. Well, in India everyone but Tim and Sarah got sick at least once and had to stay back from VBS that/those day(s). So when Allie got sick, we figured she’d get better pretty soon and everything. A lot of the time in India, I was with Allie, getting to know her better and sometimes sharing my life with her. So when she fell sick, I was pretty bummed, who would I sit with on the bus with headaches?! 😉 I was pretty sad, but we were so busy it wasn’t too bad. Anyway…I went to visit Al quite a few times, seeing how she was and everything. But what I expected from her, was waaay different from what I saw. I expected a complaining, homesick, possibly crying, sleeping, straight up GRUMP. I thought I’d go in, ask if she needed anything, then leave her alone. BUT, when I went in, she was laughing!! Part of the time she was sick she hung out with Aunt Janet because they were both kinda lonely and both sick. Allie wasn’t grumpy, didn’t act upset and always always pasted a smile on her face…That so made an impression on me. She was constantly happy, even when she wasn’t happy. She never complained with the exception of taking “The Green Pill”…haha. But I realized how Allie wasn’t complaining, upset or having a pity party about being upset. So that was such and example to me, I’m going to work on that while I’M sick too…
Allie was good for more then a smile though. I mean, we all loved her joy, even when she didn’t wanna be joyful or smile or be happy. But Allie was more then just happiness. Al was an example of humility, leadership and a true friend.
Her humility was shown through many many different situations. Sometimes it was when I was sharing something or we were talking about our lives. She’d flat out tell me “this is what i did, here’s why it was wrong, please don’t do it.” That was really cool the way she didn’t hold like anything back, she just would tell it as it was and that was really honorable.
Speaking of telling it like it is, she would so do that for me. And it wasn’t in a pushy way and it wasn’t like “here, now go away.” She’d tell me the honest-to-goodness-truth, then help me understand and accept it. I really appreciated someone being frank and telling me what was really going on in me and how I need to fix it.
Leadership. Allie was an awesome example of leadership. She didn’t cross over the lines and take over the guys that were really leading and didn’t step too far and try to be a leader of the whole team. But, as a recent HS graduate, she was an amazing leader. Before we even left she talked to us girls and was telling us how the she was talking to some of the guys and they were telling her that they really really wanna work on like serving us and being leaders. So Al stepped up and told us girls what the guys had told her. She asked us to look for ways to thank them and point out God’s grace in their lives. She also wanted to remind us to be humble and LET them serve us (which actually wasn’t toooo easy). Oh, I def wanna throw in that the guys did an AMAZING job of serving and of really really being leaders. They did everything you could imagine to serve us. But that is for an entirely different post.
And the last thing I mentioned, a true friend. I saw her go through conflicts and I saw her handle them. It was really neat to watch her. She knew she wasn’t perfect and she knew that she doesn’t handle everything right. When she messed up, she’d go back and apologize for that. Something I can definitely grow in. She was there for people and never turned them down. One night after she’d just gotten over being sick I asked her if I could talk to her. She knew it was kind of important and was open to talking. The thing is, I know she was tired. She was falling asleep before I asked her and she still said ok. We sat on the hot, dirty, and quite uncomfortable chairs for a while and she listened, then responded then helped tell me what I need to do to make things right.
Another story was when we were on our way back from Bharuch (I’m not sure how to spell that one…), the city where the teaching team had been, we sat together…Well we got talking and I said something that made her wonder about the background of that…So she started asking questions and probing my heart. She worked and worked and worked. I wasn’t the easiest person for her to work through something with. But she continued even when I didn’t want to. She wouldn’t let me lie about anything or keep any of it to myself. Even after the like 5 hr bus ride she came inside and finished what we started…I couldn’t believe she’d care that much to spend a bunch of time working through something ‘small’ with me…That was quite an example of what I should be doing with my own friends, ect.
Anyway, I just wanted to share how I saw God working in Allie’s life as we spent 2 weeks in India together. So ily Al and thanks for everything you did for me and others on this trip…it was only by you relying on God that all the things said could’ve been possible…so thanks…