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Fall Down-Superchick February 28, 2009

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Fall Down-Superchick
I’ve been meaning to post this since the beginning of the month, so here it is finally.

LYRICS:

I’m not afraid to fall
It means I climbed up high
(Favorite line in the whole song. I am incredibly scared of falling, failing. But now I’m realizing that if I fall, and fall hard, it’s for a reason. It’s because I tried hard. If I am really upset about falling or failing, it’s because I put my heart into it. It’s because I cared.)
To fall is not to fail
You fail when you dont try

(I have failed so many times-failing meaning I haven’t tried because I am scared I will fall. But falling is trying. I have become a littttttttle bit more of a risk taker, trying things even if it means I might fail at them. That’s because when I don’t try, I fail. If I fall while tying something, that’s alright)
I’m not afraid to fall
I might just learn to fly
And I will spread these wings of mine

If I get up I might fall back down again
so lets get up C’mon
If I get up I might fall back down again
We get up anyway
If I get up I might fall back down again
so lets get up C’mon
If Iget up I might fall back down again
And I might fall back down again
And well just jump and see
Even if its the 20th time
We’ll just jump and see if we can fly

I’m not afraid to fall
And here I told you so
Don’t want to rock the boat
But I just had to know
Just a greener side
Or can I touch the sky
But either way I will try

If I get up I might fall abck down again
So lets get up C’mon
If I get up I might fall back down again
We get up anyway
If I get up I might fall back down again
so lets get up C’mon
If I get up I might fall back down again
and I might fall abck down again
And we’ll just jump and see
Even if its the 30th time
We’ll just jump and see if we can fly

I’m not afraid to fall
I’ve fallen many times
They laughed when I fell down
But I dared to climb
I’m not afraid to fall
I know i’ll fall again
But I can win this in the end

If I get up I might fall back down again
So lets get up C’mon
If I get up I might fall back down again
We get up anyway
If I get up I might fall back down again
So lets get up C’mon
If I get up I might fall back down again
and we’ll just jump and see
Even if its the 40th time
We’ll just jump and see if we can fly

 

Stand Up-Superchick

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I just heard this song for the first time.
Stand Up-Superchick

Another thing I have been thinking about a ton this week is just about making a difference. About my life being different. I’ve been thinking about what my actions reflect. This song challenged me.
LYRICS:
Livin’ in this nightmare
Destroyin’ my dreams
Hauntin’ to myself
What regret keeps hunting me
But can I change my ways
Of counting the days
That keep on fadin’ away
I keep losing today
When it’s gone
And the hourglass falls
Will I have more than regret to show for it all?
Or will I wake up and start living my dreams
Instead of lettin’ this nightmare take control of me

Live today through the future’s lens
Don’t wanna wish you could rewind and play it again
(I like this line. It’s talkinga bout living today, but also thinking about the future. Finding that balance is exteremly difficult. My tendency is to either focus on the future too much so that I’m not making use of what I have right now, or I’m living for today so much that I’m failing to think about how my actions will affect the future)

Stand up write the soundtrack for your life
It doesn’t happen to you,you happen to life
Stand up, do something with your life
It doesn’t happen to you, you happen to life
(This is true to an extent. I cannot sit around and just let me life pass me by. The great people in history didn’t accomplish things by waiting for life to happen to them. They were brave, they made hard choices. THEY happened to life.)

You’re bored, gotta wonder if there’s more
Waiting for the dream life you thought you had in store.
Trying to feel something you can chase a life that’s thrilla
Living on the edge drinking smoking dream killers.
Couldabeen shouldabeen wouldabeen..
what might your life have been
Today you’re not a has-been, but at your life’s end
will you have regrets then? i have regrets then.
Are you ok with today if tomorrow is the end?
(This line in red is the main reason I love this song. I wrote this on my hand today. Am I okay if life ends tomorrow? What am I leaving behind? What statement have I made? It’s a sobering thought.)

We’re all scared, gotta wonder what’s out there,
Shooting down the ones who did what we wish we dared
Everybody’s scared to Karaoke in the open
Afraid we’re not as special as what we might be hoping so we’re frozen haven’t chosen
just going through the motions
Faith and belief, courage overrule emotions
Stand up and be counted for something when it’s time
Decide where you stand, take your hands raise em high
(I think you would love these lyrics too. Faith and belief, courage-they overrule emotions! So often I don’t let them overrule emotions, but they must must must!!! I want to be counted for something. Well, not that I wanted to be counted for something, but I want JESUS to be counted for something via my life. I must pick a ground-what will I stand up for, support, love? I want to make that choice and then be all for it-dive in and leave all fears behind)

Live today through the futures lens
Don’t wanna wish you could reset and play it again

Stand up write the soundtrack for your life
It doesn’t happen to you,you happen to life
Stand up, do something with your life
It doesn’t happen to you, you happen to life

 

What about Gray?

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 11:11 AM
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You know, it’s kinda weird what I’ve been thinking about.

I’ve been thinking about black and white. I’ve been thinking about how there IS  a gray area. In the Christian community we like to see things black and white typically-truth and lies, good and bad, lies and honesty, Evil and righteousness, humility and pride.

I’m all for that, I really am. I see things black and white. But, I think that can also lead to a bad tendency. Not for everyone, but for me. As far as my faith goes, I’m not sure if this has any “bad side affects” to it, because I am just starting to think about it. With OCD, I have trouble seeing things in between black and white. Things are either A or B, 1 or 2. There IS no middle ground. This plays out especially with controlling and passiveness. I often feel that I have two options- Control or be controlled. This is not a good habit. I’m learning that there IS a middle ground. I can suggest and not demand. I can ask and not command. This concept seems really simple, I realize that. But for me personally, it’s a big milestone that I can understand this. And yet I still don’t fully understand. I like to see things straight up-no options. I don’t like to make decisions-I like things to be straight cut. When there is middle ground I tend to freak. I’m seeing that I can not have to control or be controlled. There is the option of assertive-making my will known but not forcing other to act upon it.
I’m learning that I don’t like communication-especially verbal communication. I’m learning not to manipulate-which is my typical form of controlling. These are all things that take time and are very long learning proccesses. But it’s okay. It will take time and I’m okay with that.
I’m just thankful that I have a faithful friend who was kind enough to help me see these things, help me see what the application of this would look like, talk them out, and pray that I will start to learn these skills.
Hopefully as I gain more insight on the topic I can share that, but it may take time. I’m learning that there are more than two options. This scares me a little bit, but I know that I have to conquer that fear. I know that God knows the difference between black and white and that possible gray area. I know that He can teach me what the looks like also. I know that God knows all things. I am realizing that I don’t.

 

 

Love Is Here-Tenth Avenue North

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Track 9-Love is Here-Tenth Avenue North
FINALLY a legit video!

Lyrics:
Come to the waters, you who thirst and you’ll thirst no more.
Come to the father, you who work and you’ll work no more.
And all you who labor in vain and to the broken and shamed:

Love is here.
Love is now.
Love is pouring from
His hands, from his brows.

Love is near, it satisfies.
Streams of mercy flowing from his side.
Cuz love is here.

Come to the treasure, you who search and you’ll search no more.
Come to the lover you who want and you’ll want no more, no.
And all you who labor in vain and to the broken and shamed,

Love is here.
Love is now.
Love is pouring from his hands, from his brows.
Love is near, it satisfies.
Streams of mercy flowing from his side. 

And to the bruised and fallen,
Captives, bound, and broken hearted.

He is the lord
He is the lord, 

By his stripes he’s paid our ransom
From his wounds we drink salvation

He is the lord
He is the lord

Love is here.
Love is now.
Love is pouring from his hands, from his brows.
Love is near,
It satisfies.
Streams of mercy flowing from his side.
Streams of mercy flowing from his side.
Cuz love is here
Love is here.

 

You Alone-Stephanie Smith

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Track 8- You Alone-Stephanie Smith

This video is CRAP. It’s all I could find. I hope she doesn’t really sound like that in person!

I’m lost again
In awe tonight
As You paint the sunset sky
A miracle, another sign
With Your thumb print every time
It always seems to bring to mind
The blessings I call my life

But that’s just what You do
That’s not all of You

Chorus:
I love You for You, You, and You alone
Because of You, You, and You alone
Not for all of Your wonders
But all that You are

I love You, You, You, You alone

You’re more than just a name I praise
You’re more than amazing Grace
Your mercy is new every day
But that’s just the starting place
It’s Your heart
It’s Your face
It’s Your beauty I long to chase

But it’s not what You do
That’s why I love You

Chorus

Even though my minds too small
To really grasp all that You are
I’ll trust You with my heart
‘Cause You love me
I can love You
I love You
You alone

 

Never Be The Same-Red

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Track 7-Never Be The Same-Red
I love this band. I just started listening to them in like the past few months. They’re a litttttle intense for me. A little rockish, haha. Their tiny bit of almost screaming is about as much as I can handle.

I know you, who are you now?
Look into my eyes if you can’t remember
Do you remember?

I can see, I can still find
you’re the only voice my heart can recognize
But I can’t hear you now, yeah

I’ll never be the same I’m caught inside
the memories of promises of yesterdays
and I belong to you
I just can’t walk away ‘cuz after loving you
I can never be the same

And how can I pretend to never
know you like it was all a dream?
No
I know I’ll never forget the way I always felt
with you beside me, and how you loved me then, yeah

You led me here, then I watched you disappear
You left this emptiness inside and I can’t turn back time

No! Stay! Nothing compares to you
nothing compares to you
I can’t let you go
can’t let you go
I can’t let go

I can never be the same,
not after loving you,
not after loving you,
No

I’ll never be the same I’m caught inside
the memories of promises of yesterdays
and I belong to you
I just can’t walk away ‘cuz after loving you
I can never be the same

 

You Found Me-The Fray

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Track 6-You Found Me-The Fray
I’m not sure that there are words to tell you how much I love this song. ❤
This video isnt the best quality, but the good ones all had disabeled embedding, so I couldn’t post them.

I found God
On the corner of first and Amistad
Where the west was all but won
All alone, smoking his last cigarette
I Said where you been, he said ask anything
Where were you?
When everything was falling apart
All my days were spent by the telephone
It never rang
And all I needed was a call
That never came
To the corner of first and Amistad

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Whyd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

In the end everyone ends up alone
Losing her, the only one whos ever known
Who I am, who Im not, who I want to be
No way to know how long she will be next to me

Early morning, City breaks
Ive been calling for years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
You never send me no letters
You got some kind of nerve, taking all I want