One Month Later February 2, 2009

Filed under: God showed/taught me/ect,Life,School — beyondtheoutside @ 12:33 PM
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So it’s been a month since I made my new years resolutions. I believe the first month is the hardest. Particularly the last week or two. I am glad I told people to keep me accountable to these things and posted them on my blog. I have a lot of pride so if I say something to people, I will do my best to keep my word. If I just told myself I would do these things, I would probably fail. Anyway, just a little update on life. And yes, my expectancy post will come this week, I promise!

I have never been one that is into New Years resolutions. Personally, I find them dumb. This year though, I am going to make a couple resolutions. . .
1)During the year 2009 I want to be open. Open to help, open to peoples input, advice, and correction. I have noticed what a closed off person I am. Scared of being manipulated, I push away most people in my life and I hardly listen to what people say. I’m going to be open to consider what people have to say to me. I feel that I can do that, or at least to attempt.
–> This has been amazing. New years day I got backstabbed by a friend-hard. So I was immediately challenged. This has been going well. It is hard to find a balance though. I know this girl though and we had an amazing convo about our lives because I was open with her about my life and she was also. It was very encouraging. And I know that she does not have the intention of hurting me.
2)My second resolution is that I am going to try harder. In the beginning of 2008 I was trying, but not giving it my all. As the year progressed, I got weaker and just burnt out. I was exhausted from fighting and just worn out. I gave up. I gave in. This year I will do my best to fight as hard as is possible. I’m not going to say that I will succeed or even once, but that I am going to do my best. I want to look back on this coming year and not regret not giving it my all like I will this year.
–> This is really hard. Academically I have been trying harder than ever. In other ways, though, it has been hard. Its been trial and error. I have had both victories and failures. This weekend I was very very tested. Was I going to try? Would I fight temptation? Although it was hard, I called on a friend who graciously helped me through that time. The next day the same thing kinda happened and another friend came to my rescue. Oh how I love my friends.
3)Third resolution. My third resolution will be that I am going to memorize more scripture. This year I did memorize a ton of scripture, but I would memorize it, remember it for a while, then slack off and forget. 2 verses (or set of verses) each month. That is reasonable and hopefully I will get more than that, but my memorization skills suck so we’ll see. I feel that if I can memorize the entire periodic table in like a month, then I can memorize some scripture. I’ll post what scriptures I will be memorizing (or for most, re-memorizing) this coming year at a later time.
–> I have the first two memorized. I wasn’t home yesterday at all so I wasn’t able to look at which verses to start, but I will start them today. Hopefully I will remember all four by the end of this month.
4)Fourth resolution is that I am going to read 6 books that will help me to grow spiritually. I have 4 of the 6 picked out already, but I will post the names of all 6 later also. I wanted to do 12, but with everything that will be going on this year, that is not reasonable.
–> I read 170 pages of a 230 page book in Jan. Hopefully I will read more than 6 books, but we’ll see.
5)This year I would also like to ATTEMPT to think reasonably. As often as is possible I am going to try to catch myself when I am setting unrealistic expectations for myself. By the end of the year I would like to say that I am a more reasonable thinker. Even if I only change a little bit in this area, that will be a huge step.
–> This has been really difficult, but it’s amazing the change God has made in my head. I am thinking differently. And like I said, any change is a HUGE step for me. I have already seen God taking me leaps and bounds. This is also related to my expectancy thing. I didn’t expect God to change me so much, but He has exceeded my expectations.
6)The other thing that I will attempt this year is that I am going to try to change the way that I think into a more positive thinker. I often can recognize when I am thinking negatively and I would like to change that. Again, any progress in this area is a big change for me.
–> This is taking time. I have gotten to the place where I am recognizing my bad or negative thoughts and capturing them. Replacing them and keeping them away is a struggle though.
7) I want to become a more caring and relatable person. There are a few types of people that I just have the hardest time relating to. When people are so different from me, I tend to just pull away from them because I don’t know what to do or say or what their interests are. I plan to try to talk with them more and try to identify more with them. I know that this will take intentionality and work, but I am prepared for that ) I actually have an opportunity to start this one right now, so I really should go do that. . .
–> This is going alright. Again, finding balance in this area is hard. Where can I step out and reach out to people and when is it okay to just hang with my friends? I have had a hard time with this one. My college class gave me lots of chances to practice this though and I’m glad about that.
8 ) This year I would like to learn how to take better pictures. I got a new camera earlier this year because my first Kodak Easyshare camera broke (r.i.p. I loved that camera-it was good to me). I have a nicer fugifilm camera now and I would like to get books from the library and read them, do some internet research and talk to people who are way better at taking pictures than I am.
–> I haven’t done anything in this yet. I most likely wont attack this area until later in the year. I have NO time for that right now.
9) Something I have learned is crucial in life is peace and quiet. In my house full of 8 people, 10 when we’re all here, it can be a little hectic (to say the least). I would like to try to take more time, at least 2 times a month, to sit in peace. I can read or write or draw or think or anything, but I want to make time to be alone and in peace and quiet. This will be hard to make that time, but I love quiet so it will be good. Plus, once I have my license I can drive to a quiet place or just sit in the car somewhere that isn’t home. It will be awesome and good for my life.
–> This past Friday I did this. That means it was only once this past month. Fail. it’s okay though. I’ll try to get two times in this month.
10) I WILL get a pet! I would like to get a bunny, but I will settle for a fish or turtle or something else if I must. I have many legit reasons why an animal would be good for my life. I can’t wait )
–> Still trying to get my dad to let me get a bunny. I am gonna settle for a fish soon though.
11)This year I want to have better posture. When I danced I really did have awesome posture and over the past two years it’s gotten bad. I want to sit up straight and hold my shoulders back. It will make me look taller and I just love seeing people sitting with good posture. I’m sure it’s good for my back and stuff too.
–> THis is hard (I say while slouching. . .). I have had a really hard time with this. Oh well. I need to think about it more often.
12)I want to be more of an encouragement. A reachable goal for me this year is to encourage at least one person a week. In writing, words, e-mail, or other means of communication, I would like to be more of an encouragement in the world. Hopefully I will encourage more than one person a week, but that is what I would like to do. I also know that when I encourage others it helps me because I have to usually see and point out the GOOD things in people and it helps me to be positive and not think so negatively while also helping me think of others and look for the good things in others and where God is working most in their life.
–> I have tried to encourage one person a week and its been going well.

I am excited for what this year will bring.
1)In 2009I will take my first winterm-Check!
2)In 2009 I will get my license-I tenetively start Drivers Ed the 10th so then I should get my license early March 🙂
3)In 2009 I will graduate high-school-May 17th! possibly 16th, but as of now it is the 17th!
4)In 2009 I will take my SAT’s-yikes.-Some weekend of March
5)In 2009 I will start and finish my first semester of college classes-Not till September
6)In 2009 I will get my first real job-Got that secured! My contract is coming in the mail and I will be signing it soon!

I found out last Sunday that I have until May first to get my grades turned in. I have 3 months, Feb, March, April, 89 days to finish ALL of my school. I try not to think of it like that because it scares me! But oh well. If I take it day by day and day by day ONLY, then I am okay and not too stressed out. Speaking of school, I need to get back to work!


One Response to “One Month Later”

  1. Otto Mann Says:

    good luck wif all that stuff, mate.

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