Sorry! April 22, 2009

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If you have been missing me (and I’m sure you haven’t), I apologize. I will be back shortly. May 1st is my last day of school and may 2nd I have SAT’s (again). After that, life will be SOOOOOO free and unstressful and easy again (hopefully…). Anyway. just stick it out. Here’s what’s to come:
-Learning not to complain
-2 YA messages that I haven’t yet posted
-1 Sunday message I wanna blog about
-College plans
-Life in general/update from this month’s resolutions/plans for the summer.
So, if you’ll stick it out with me for about 9 more days, I’ll be sure to provide something interesting for you (hopefully!).
Right now I have to get back to Latin, MATH SAT prep,  Julius Ceasar & work for that, and finishing up my Chem lab. Yes, I have to do that before going to bed and it’s already 7PM. Yep, I’m screwed. But I’ll get it done, I always do.


Little is Much-Downhere April 4, 2009

I am so blessed. I wake up everyday in a warm home, in a warm bed, with a closet full of clothes, a nice room that I have to myself, with family and friends. When I’m hungry, there is always food to eat in my house. I am blessed to have babysitting and cleaning jobs right now to make some extra cash. I’m blessed to have a summer job. I’m blessed to have a education. Some people are not so blessed in this way. Some people, they don’t have a family. Some people, they dont have a home. Some people dont have an abundance of clothing. Some people dont have money or a job. Some people don’t even have food. That’s where Sarah’s Hope comes in. It’s a women and childrens shelter in Baltimore City. They house and feed women and children of all ages. I’ve had the chance to go down there once on a Sunday night with some people from my church and serve dinner. It was great. The children were so sweet and the parents were so thankful. All the staff at Sarah’s Hope was so nice! I haven’t been able to go down there again (yet), but plan to in the summer when things are less hectic. For now though, I have found another way to serve the women and children of Sarah’s Hope. I went to Aldi’s, brought $25 and got some food. My church is serving dinner there Sunday, so I’m going to send the food with them. I e-mailed Mr. Connor, the Director, and he told me they needed childrens like after school snacks, fruit, fruit cups, cookies, brownies, sugar, white bread, and a couple other things. I was able to get so much for my money. It made me so glad to get those things knowing that this is a real need that will be met. I’m so blessed to be able to bless others in this way. Doing this put me in such a good mood. I talked to some woman at the grocery store who I let in front of me in line. She talked about her elbow and how she cant balance and she had cancer and her insurance wont renew unless she stops smoking, etc, etc. I think it really blessed her that I just listened. I’m blessed to be able to bless others in this way. At Aldi, you have to put a quarter in to get a cart, but you get it back when you put your cart back (that way people dont steal carts). When I went to put mine back an older man was getting a cart. I gave him mine. He offered me a quarter in return since I wasn’t going to be able to get my quarter back since I gave him my cart with the quarter in it. I insisted that he keep it and told him to have a nice day. I hope that that blessed him. I’m so blessed to be able to bless others in this way! I got a slurpee and as I was getting back into my car, I saw a homeless man on the corner. I’m blessed with money, so I bought him a donut and soda. It was all of $2. I gave it to him and he had a huge smile-maybe he really was homeless? I’m blessed to be able to bless others. Today has just been a great day that I’m thankful to God for. He’s blessed me so much by allowing me to bless others. I’m so thankful and happy right now 🙂

Anyway, on the way home, driving with my music up and windows down, I heard this song. I love it. It was perfect because sometimes I feel like I’m too young, too little, too incompetant, etc. for God to use me. But that’s not true. Just by running to the store to get some food with the money God blessed me with, I am able to plant seeds. Listen to the song real fast and look at the lyrics.

Lyrics to Little Is Much :
What is the measure of a life well lived
If all I can offer seems too small to give
This is a song for the weaker, the poorer
And so-called failures

Little is much when God’s in it
And no one can fathom the plans He holds
Little is much when God’s in it
He changes the world with the seeds we sow
Little is much, little is much

Who feels tired and under-qualified
Who feels deserted, and hung out to dry
This is a song for the broken, the beat-up
And so-called losers

Consider a Kingdom in the smallest seed
Consider that giants fall to stones and slings
Consider a child in a manger
Consider the story isn’t over
What can be done with what you still have


new link April 3, 2009

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Jessica wallace/graham.

New link.

On the right.

Check it.


3 months later April 1, 2009

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Update-3 months.
1)During the year 2009 I want to be open. Open to help, open to peoples input, advice, and correction. I have noticed what a closed off person I am. Scared of being manipulated, I push away most people in my life and I hardly listen to what people say. I’m going to be open to consider what people have to say to me. I feel that I can do that, or at least to attempt.
–> Well, this is real hard…still. I was making progress, but might be at a stand still right now.
2)My second resolution is that I am going to try harder. In the beginning of 2008 I was trying, but not giving it my all. As the year progressed, I got weaker and just burnt out. I was exhausted from fighting and just worn out. I gave up. I gave in. This year I will do my best to fight as hard as is possible. I’m not going to say that I will succeed or even once, but that I am going to do my best. I want to look back on this coming year and not regret not giving it my all like I will this year.
–> Academically I have been trying harder than ever. Spiritually, I’ve been putting lots of effort into it. Still about. . .80ish %? Not good enough quite yet. I’ve been trying harder, I really have.
3)Third resolution. My third resolution will be that I am going to memorize more scripture. This year I did memorize a ton of scripture, but I would memorize it, remember it for a while, then slack off and forget. 2 verses (or set of verses) each month. That is reasonable and hopefully I will get more than that, but my memorization skills suck so we’ll see. I feel that if I can memorize the entire periodic table in like a month, then I can memorize some scripture. I’ll post what scriptures I will be memorizing (or for most, re-memorizing) this coming year at a later time.
–> YES! I have gotten all six memorized compeletly. I’m actually so so so surprised I was able to do this, I’m sucky at memorization. But oh well. I start my next two today 🙂
4)Fourth resolution is that I am going to read 6 books that will help me to grow spiritually. I have 4 of the 6 picked out already, but I will post the names of all 6 later also. I wanted to do 12, but with everything that will be going on this year, that is not reasonable.
–> I finished my first ”listed” book and I have read like 5 or 6 others. Reading is my new stress reliever. I am on day 25 of 31 for my 2nd book. I’ve been reading a lot of extras also. This is a lighter year of reading for school, so I’ve been able to do more “fun” reading. I just started “the problem of pain” by C.S. Lewis, but it’s a little over my head, so I’m not sure I’m going to continue reading that one.
5)This year I would also like to ATTEMPT to think reasonably. As often as is possible I am going to try to catch myself when I am setting unrealistic expectations for myself. By the end of the year I would like to say that I am a more reasonable thinker. Even if I only change a little bit in this area, that will be a huge step.
–> Uh-fail? Pretty much. I’m not really improving much in this area. I’m seeing when I’m not thinking resonably, but it’s just been a hard time to put this into practice. I’m working on it though. I’m starting to THINK reasonably, or rather, know what is reasonable-but yet still just put that on the back burner kinda.
6)The other thing that I will attempt this year is that I am going to try to change the way that I think into a more positive thinker. I often can recognize when I am thinking negatively and I would like to change that. Again, any progress in this area is a big change for me.
–> Uh, so I was improving but, again, I’m at a stand still this past week and a half.
7) I want to become a more caring and relatable person. There are a few types of people that I just have the hardest time relating to. When people are so different from me, I tend to just pull away from them because I don’t know what to do or say or what their interests are. I plan to try to talk with them more and try to identify more with them. I know that this will take intentionality and work, but I am prepared for that
–> God has been doing some cool things in this area, especially with people that I have lost touch with and I\’m reconnecting with, people that I never knew I cared about, and people that I’m just meeting. So that’s been cool to see play out in my life the past month. God’s awesome like that and definitely teaching me more about how Jesus befriended people when He was here on earth.
8 ) This year I would like to learn how to take better pictures. I got a new camera earlier this year because my first Kodak Easyshare camera broke (r.i.p. I loved that camera-it was good to me). I have a nicer fugifilm camera now and I would like to get books from the library and read them, do some internet research and talk to people who are way better at taking pictures than I am.
–> I haven’t done anything in this yet. I most likely wont attack this area until later in the year, most likely summer. I have NO time for that right now. I honestly haven’t really even been taking many pictures in general.
9) Something I have learned is crucial in life is peace and quiet. In my house full of 8 people, 10 when we’re all here, it can be a little hectic (to say the least). I would like to try to take more time, at least 2 times a month, to sit in peace. I can read or write or draw or think or anything, but I want to make time to be alone and in peace and quiet. This will be hard to make that time, but I love quiet so it will be good. Plus, once I have my license I can drive to a quiet place or just sit in the car somewhere that isn’t home. It will be awesome and good for my life.
–> March was a half fail. I got it in once this month.
10) I WILL get a pet! I would like to get a bunny, but I will settle for a fish or turtle or something else if I must. I have many legit reasons why an animal would be good for my life. I can’t wait
–> STILL working on my parents with this one. . .I DON’T want to settle for a fish!
11)This year I want to have better posture. When I danced I really did have awesome posture and over the past two years it’s gotten bad. I want to sit up straight and hold my shoulders back. It will make me look taller and I just love seeing people sitting with good posture. I’m sure it’s good for my back and stuff too.
–> One of the hardest resolutions. Talk about breaking habits-this is so difficult!
12)I want to be more of an encouragement. A reachable goal for me this year is to encourage at least one person a week. In writing, words, e-mail, or other means of communication, I would like to be more of an encouragement in the world. Hopefully I will encourage more than one person a week, but that is what I would like to do. I also know that when I encourage others it helps me because I have to usually see and point out the GOOD things in people and it helps me to be positive and not think so negatively while also helping me think of others and look for the good things in others and where God is working most in their life.
–> I have tried to intentionally encourage one person a week (card, phone call, e-mail, etc.) and its been going well for the most part.

I am excited for what this year will bring.
1)In 2009I will take my first winterm-CHECK! Can’t believe that was only 2 months ago!!
2)In 2009 I will get my license-CHECK!
3)In 2009 I will graduate high-school-May 17th!
4)In 2009 I will take my SAT’s-CHECK! I get my scores on the 7th. I’m planning on taking it again in May also, just for security.
5)In 2009 I will start and finish my first semester of college classes-Not till September
6)In 2009 I will get my first real job-CHECK. 76 days till I start training week 🙂


Welcome to my blogroll, Mr. Dan!

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New link.
It’s on the right.
It’s Mr. Dan.
He goes to my church.
I’ve read his blog before, but I never knew it was him.
I just went to it and I read it more and realized he also had a link for my blog!
How nice.
Anyway, check it out.
Or click here.