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I feel bad. October 16, 2009

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I should be out in that driveway stopping you
Tears should be rolling down my cheek
And I don’t know why I’m not falling apart
Like I usually do
And how the thought of losing you’s not killing me
I feel bad
That I can stand here strong
Cold as stone, Seems so wrong
I can’t explain it
Maybe it’s just
I’ve cried so much
I’m tired and I’m numb Baby I hate it
I feel bad that I don’t feel bad

I can let myself be angry over wasted time
And sad about just throwing love away
Yeah I almost wish my heart was breaking
But I cant lie
All I want to do is turn the page
I feel Bad

That I can stand here strong
Cold as stone, Seems so wrong
I can’t explain it
Maybe it’s just
I’ve cried so much
I’m tired and I’m numb Baby I hate it
I feel bad

That I don’t feel bitter, alone
I just feel its time, its time to move on
I just gotta move on and on and on and on

Yeah
Baby it’s just I’ve cried so much
I’m tired and I’m numb baby I hate it
I feel bad that I don’t feel bad
No, I don’t feel bad

 

All For You-Starfield October 15, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 6:44 PM

Song I was listening to on the way home from work 🙂
Nothing compares to
Life I have in You
Nothing of this
world satisfies
So, I want to let go
I want to let You know
All that I have to
give is Yours

Here I am
As gold to the fire
I will surrender to Your hand
To this place
Lord, I have come
ready for Your touch

It’s all for You
It’s all for You
I’m letting go
I’m letting go

What is it in me
That hangs on for so long
Why do I fight the
tears that come?
I work so hard to
Keep in control when
All that I want is to let go

I’ll take this life
And lay it down
I’m letting go
I’m letting go
My hopes and dreams
Here at Your feet
I’m letting go
I’m letting go

 

Life is like…driving home from work?

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 6:37 PM

When I was driving home from work, I had a lot on my mind. Last night was…awful, to under-exagerate. When I’m driving I always have my iPod on, unless I need to hear the traffic to decide how to drive home. Anyway, so I heard the traffic, decided to go the back roads home because the highways had major traffic. So I put my GPS on and told it go take me home. I then turned on my iPod and started rocking out. No, not really. I just put my “recently added” playlist and soaked in the truth that the lyrics provided me with. And, of course, the one day I take back roads home, I hit EVERY light. Literally I probably went through 50 or 60 lights and only 2 were green. I’m not exagerating- TWO! I was getting very frustrated. But then I was thinking about how this drive home was kinda of like life. I chose my path on my own, with some wisdom given to me by the traffic people on the radio. This is kinda like how the Bible, and the Gospel in the Bible, led me to Christ. Then, I typed it into my GPS and asked it how to get home, avoiding certain things (traffic, highways). This reminded me of how I turn to the Bible for guidance of how to live my life, avoiding sin and the things of this world. But I still have to drive, I still have to get home. It’s not the driving I’m avoiding (or rather, being IN the world), but rather just certain roads (or, I want to be IN the word but not OF the world). Then, as I said, I hit every light. I was stopped, staring at a red light. I was frustrated because my GPS had told me an arrival time. Sometimes we have misconceptions of how the world should be.  I think that it should be easy all the time and fun and comfortable and all about me. But, there are other drivers and there are rules I must follow, just like in life there are others I must be considerate of and who will make mistakes when “driving” and I have to choose to respond in one way or another. I was getting frustrated because I didn’t want to have to sit anymore at red lights. It was then that I was reminded that God is in control, and He choses which “lights” are red in my life, what “detours” I have to take, what “lights” I can drive right through, and which ones I have to proceed through, but with caution and wisdom. Also on my drive home it was raining. My car isn’t very good, so my wheels were turning ways I didn’t want and I was close to loosing control of my steering, and my brakes were very touch-and-go. I was scared. This made me think about my faith. I was thinking about what my life would be life if my faith were like my car, and I believe it is. I don’t have ABS breaks, and my car was loosing traction. When “life” “rains” it seems I am the same as my car. I’m tempted to loose control, I almost crash, I get scared, and I don’t know how to stop. If my faith were like a nice, safe, car, then maybe I wouldn’t be so scared when the “storms” of life came. Anyway, that’s how I think life resembles my drive home 🙂

 

On the Ride-Altered October 14, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 6:21 PM

😦 altered lyrics.

We didn’t have to try
To think the same thoughts
We just had a way
Of knowing everything was gonna be ok

We’d laugh ’til we cried
Read each others minds
Lived with a smile
Made it all worthwhile
Made it all worthwhile

Life had moments hard to describe
Felt great and felt alive
Now we’re coming down from this
Mountain we were on

Always knew that we’d be fine
felt great and felt alive
Now we’re coming down from this
Mountain we were on
The feeling was so clear
And it was crazy up there
Life was amazing with you on the ride

We didn’t wanna sleep
Just wanted to stay up
There was so much to say
And not enough hours in the day

We’d laugh ’til we cried
Read each others minds
Lived with a smile
Made it all worthwhile
Made it all worthwhile

No time to be lazy
The journey was perfect
The pace was so crazy
The race was so worth it
You said I’ll be with you
We’ll do this together
Always together

Life has moments hard to describe
Feeling great and feeling alive
Now wer’e coming down from this
Mountain we were on
(Mountain we were on)

 

The Words I would say! Sidewalk Prophets October 12, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 7:57 PM

i know, it’s been forever.  Sorry. But I just HAVE to post this because i love it so much. This is a horrible  version, but i love this song so much i cant stop listening to it.

Three in the morning,
And I’m still awake,
So I picked up a pen and a page,
And I started writing,
Just what I’d say,
If we were face to face,
I’d tell you just what you mean to me,
I’d tell you these simple truths,

Be strong in the Lord and,
Never give up hope,
You’re going to do great things,
I already know,
God’s got His hand on you so,
Don’t live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don’t forget why you’re here,
Take your time and pray,
These are the words I would say,

Last time we spoke,
You said you were hurting,
And I felt your pain in my heart,
I want to tell you,
That I keep on praying,
Love will find you where you are,
I know cause I’ve already been there,
So please hear these simple truths,

Be strong in the Lord and,
Never give up hope,
You’re going to do great things,
I already know,
God’s got His hand on you so,
Don’t live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don’t forget why you’re here,
Take your time and pray,
These are the words I would say,

From one simple life to another,
I will say,
Come find peace in the Father,

Be strong in the Lord and,
Never give up hope,
You’re going to do great things,
I already know,
God’s got His hand on you so,
Don’t live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don’t forget why you’re here,
Take your time and pray,
Thank God for each day,
His love will find a way,
These are the words I would say