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I’m back. . . February 22, 2010

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 10:12 AM

I know, I know, it’s been a while. I’m really bad at consistantly blogging. There are other things that are more important to do consistently besides blogging, so I’m okay with the fact that I will never blog every day haha.

Well, some exciting things…

School started again. It’s been weird because I only had two days of classes before having a week and a half off of school, so I never got into a good routine or got to know how my teacher ran their classes and stuff. There wasn’t even much homework I could do or get ahead in because all of my classes were just starting. Going back was hard for us students and I think for the teachers. Most of my teachers have been so good about the snow and have pushed back tests and things to help us out and give us more time. That’s been a huge blessing. I have weird classmates. In my first class, there is a very very gay boy. I haven’t ever seen anyone like him. He wears all girls clothes (skinny jeans with UGGs and womens tops) and does his make up every day and…ew ew ew. It grosses me out. Next class is an albino, or at least I think he is. He’s so white and his strange, almost red looking eyes. He’s so tall. He likes to argue with the teacher and has a funny little voice. My next class has someone with turrets in it. This makes the class interesting, to say the least. This is American Government. One time my teacher asked a question and I answered. Mr. Turrets didn’t like my answer so he shouts out “AS IF!!!!” It was so funny. We all tried not to laugh. I do not at all want to make fun of this kid, but he says comical things so it’s been a tricky balance between when to laugh and when not to laugh. He’s getting better as the weeks go on though because our teacher has talked to him a lot. It’s weird though. And he puts his big feet with hiking boots that he wears on the table because he just relaxes during class. He doesn’t take notes. He is really smart though and knows more than I’ll ever know about history. So that’s cool. I do feel a little bad though because, I’ll admit, my classmates and I try not to let him sit next to us because he puts his feet on the table and like pulls his hair out of his head. I guess I just need to be more comfortable with him, I don’t know. I’ve never really known anyone with turrets so it’s uncomfortable for me. Anyway, then in my last class I have a girl who wears….Drum roll….a tail. Yes, a tail. Imagine this on a string or something attached to the back of a girl in COLLEGE.

That class is a joke and it’s so weird. I don’t even know if I’m going to keep coming because it’s my last class of the day and he doesn’t care if you come or not and we don’t learn anything and the slides are online and we don’t even do anything worth going for. We’ll see. My online classes are going well. I have my first math test today before work. Should be fun. Addiction counseling is going okay. I had the wrong book for three weeks because of the girl at the bookstore giving me the wrong book. So then I had read 100 pages of the wrong book, not read 100 pages in the right book and I had a test the day after I realized the girl had given me the wrong book. Let me tell you, that was a crazy day. I had to try to return the $85 book that I didn’t need, which they refused to do, go to two different bookstores to find my right books because the boy at the first bookstore didn’t want to look in the returns pile for it, and then call the bookstore manager and explain what happened so he would let me return the book, which he did. On top of all of that, I had to read all the assigned pages from the past few weeks so that I would pass the test! Crazy crazy community college. Boo. Oh, I sent in my UMBC application! I just have to send my college transcript and I’ll be good! yay! Can’t wait. I applied for honors but don’t think I will make it into honors, but we’ll see. Overall, school is school and it’s going well. It actually looks like I might have an easier semester than last semester. yay!

China! Things are going well with fund-raising even though I need nearly $2,000 still. I’m so thankful to all who have donated and I’m working on thank you cards today. It’s just a busy season of life right now. I want to make sure I’m diligent in getting to know my team, investing in this trip in every way, as well as diligently praying for everything that goes into a trip like this. I am still working on the funds, but God’s been faithful to bring them in quickly thus far. I can’t wait πŸ™‚ People keep asking me if I’m excited. I have mixed answers. Part of me is so excited. Part of me is nervous because I don’t have anything else lined up job wise for the rest of the summer. Part of me is so busy with school and work and life that I haven’t had much time to “get excited.” Part of me, the part that is the desire God put into my heart to go to China, is beyond happy! I can’t wait. When I do actually think about it, I always get a big smile. Right now our meetings and all are mostly just logistics, but soon I know we’ll be talking about other things. Please keep our team in your prayers!

Youth Advance is next week. That is the youth retreat my church has every year for the middle and highschoolers as well as their parents. I’ve been attending since I was in 6th grade and I always enjoyed it and the Spirit always did a work in my heart. Since I chose to graduate early, I forfeited a year of going to Youth Advance as a student. That’s super sad. I’m still going this year, after much debate, but this time I’m going to serve. I love to serve the church, so I’m excited. It’s just weird because all my friends my age this year areΒ  attending as students. Being in the college care group though, it would be weird to be a student there. I’m not in the highschool group and I don’t attend their meetings. Anyway, it’s times like these that I wonder if I made the right choice to graduate early. Me and the friends I have that are my age–we’re on totally different pages in life and it’s weird. I always tell people that I would not graduate early if I could go back and do it again. I so wouldn’t. But, I made the choice and I must live with it now. I mean, it’s been a good experience it’s just got a lot of down sides to it–one of them being that I missed out on a year of being a highschooler. Oh well. Enough about that. I just wanted to say that I’m excited for the weekend after this coming one because I get to serve others.

Work has been crazy too. With the snow and everything, it’s all been thrown off. I missed babysitting and work so much. I’m getting back into the swing of things though, and that’s good. It’s just been a weird schedule because like Monday I didn’t work like usually because the kids had off. Friday I don’t usually work but I did because I was subbing for someone else. This Wednesday I’m not working my usual hours because the kids don’t have school but there is parent teacher conference day. On PTCD IΒ  come in and watch the kids from 8-3 while their parents have meetings. It’s only about 6 kids at a time and they only stay for about 20 minutes each. It’s nice though because I don’t have school so I’ll be making more money than just working 3-6. Plus, I’m still getting paid 1/2 for the 3-6 hours because my work pays half on holidays and snow days. So blessed to have my job. I can’t even explain. Uhm, so yeah. Work has been crazy, but so good.

Thursday I have the first meeting thing for my testing for my learning disability they suspect that I have. I would LOVE prayers. This meeting is just to evaluate me and make sure that I am eligible for the testing. This test is crucial. If I can’t take this test–well, I don’t even want to think about it. Basically, if I don’t have to take this test I have to take years of Spanish that UMBC requires. Well, I can’t learn foreign languages. It’s incredibly hard. Like, SO hard. This testing will exempt me from the Spanish classes. Pray my insurance covers the $2,000 testing. Pray they allow me to take the test. Pray that this meeting goes smoothly. Pray that my next appointment will be scheduled soon and not far from now. Those are all important things. I’m going on Thursday and I’m very excited!

Anyway, that’s my life in a nutshell. There is so much else I wish I could write, but I gotta go eat breakfast, make a lunch and a dinner, shower/get myself ready, go to school to get my transcript sent to UMBC, take a math test, go to work, then babysit until some-what late tonight. Tis the life of a college student. . . ?

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Sledding! February 9, 2010

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 12:04 PM

Yesterday I went sledding. It was SO fun. It was a horrible idea, however. Me and my friends Jami and Mollie thought that it would be a good idea to use a tube a lot like this:

We had about three of us on there at a time and sometimes even four of us. It was SO much fun!! I went sledding when we had the last snow and it was a blast. There were more of us and we had the guys build us a ramp. This time it wasn’t a lot of us, but it was still so fun. But the thing about a tube like that is that you fall–ALL THE TIME. I don’t even know if the three of us made it down still on it even one time! I fell off multiple times. Often I had my little brother, Jesse, on my lap, so to keep him from flipping, I would take a hard hit so he wouldn’t get hurt. He must have fallen on top of me 5 times. It was crazy. One time Jami and I were going down the hill and our legs were tangled. Well I started falling off but my legs were stuck so I was being dragged down this hill with my head and butt banging against the snow until I got uncaught. It hurt so much. Another time my head was leaning back and I couldn’t get up so my head just kept dragging and banging. I guess that is why my neck is unbelievably sore today?

Anyway, it was a blast, but I’m regretting it today. With a body like mine, you really shouldn’t do things like sledding. Plus, when you go down the hill in the tube, you have to walk back up the hill–usually carrying the tube as well. Not fun. Especially when you have knees and hips that hurt like an 89 year old, it’s not fun. I forgot that my insides are too old for sledding. It makes me kind of sad to know that I really shouldn’t do the things normal girls/boys my age do, but oh well. I guess it’s good for me or something. I just know that if I’m wise, I will not do that again because I am in an incredible amount of pain in my neck, shoulders, triceps, lower back, sides, hips, knees, and ankles. SO, I shouldn’t do that again.

Here’s a picture of the first time I went sledding back in December:

Sledding with JP

 

It Still Remains

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 11:48 AM

I love this song. It’s from Cartel’s latest album and I’m like. . . in love. I love the guys voice and the sounds in this song. Just listen.

It still remains

And I can’t pretend it’s gone

Count on me, to remember who you are

And it still remains

What if you were wrong?

I shouldn’t let, I shouldn’t let you get too far

What do I, I have to lose?

What do I, I have to do?

Is there any other way

To stop thinking ’bout

Any other days?

We had it figured out

I don’t want to lose you

After all we’ve been through

Is there nothing I can say

To turn you around?

Maybe that’s the way

To stop thinking ’bout all those yesterdays

That still remain?

It’s killing me

Wondering where you are

You don’t call

But your voice won’t go away

It still remains

I’m broken but I’m bent

On finding you, and hoping that you’ll stay

What do I, I have to lose?

What do I, I have to do?

Is there any other way

To stop thinking ’bout

Any other days?

We had it figured out

I don’t want to lose you

After all we’ve been through

Is there nothing I can say

To turn you around?

Maybe that’s the way

To stop thinking ’bout all those yesterdays

That still remain

Okay it doesn’t matter

Cause I’m still yours

Give it time to find a pattern

We will find a cure in this design

Is there any other way

To stop thinking ’bout

Any other day?

We had it figured out

I don’t want to lose you now…

Is there any other way

To stop thinking ’bout

Any another day?

We had it figured out

I don’t want to lose you

After all we’ve been through

Is there nothing I can say

To turn you around?

Maybe that’s the way

To stop thinking ’bout all those yesterdays

That still remain?

That still remain

 

So, more creative things?

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 11:09 AM

I made another card last night. I’m trying to decide who it will be for. I might give it to Leag, Megan’s 6 year old sister. I’m just not sure though because, even though it’s a kinda nice card, she isn’t as much of a girly girl so I don’t know that she would love the pink and purple and ribbons and stuff. So, we’ll see. I can always send it to someone else (assuming the snow clears one day and we ever see another mail truck!!!) or just save it for a time that I need a quick card.

Anyway, here is the card I based my idea off of: ps-From now on if I base my basic idea off of a card I find online I’m gonna try to post it just so they’re getting credit for it. To me, it’s kinda like quoting someone in a paper, haha. Anyway. here:

Now, here is my card:

It looks better than in the picture, but it’s still an okay card. I’m not like in love with it and I do like the first one I made better, but oh well. I like the idea and I think it will be perfect for someone…I’m just not sure who yet!

Well, hopefully I will make at least one more today, but I would like to make two or three more. I have other “plans” for today too. I’m also anxiously awaiting even more snow πŸ™‚ I got off school today, so that was nice. Bummer: online classes don’t have snow days. BOO. It’s okay though because I’m already half way done my entire math class and I’m at a stopping point in that class anyways because I can’t go on until I take a test which I have to go into school to do. . . But school is closed so that makes a problem. And my addiction counseling class hardly has any homework. I’m gonna read a chapter in the book and take the next quiz, but I don’t even really need to. Then we just have this little journal assignment where we have to journal 2 times a week like half a page. Not bad! So, that’s my idea of a snow day πŸ™‚ I don’t really care if we have off school tomorrow (even though I know we will) because I don’t go to school anyway. It would be nice to have off work though! I DO, however, hope we have off Thursday because I have school and work that day. And Friday I don’t have school or work, so it doesn’t matter, haha.

Well, that’s all for now folks.

 

Snowed in. . . February 8, 2010

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 8:52 PM

So my friend was suggesting things I should do while snowed in (have been since Friday and it’s looking like I will be for a couple more days!). At the top of her list was making cards. I haven’t done that in a bit, so I was excited to make cards. Here’s a picture of the first one I made for my 7 year old friend, Megan. She’s such a cutie and SO sweet. Here’s the picture I based this card off:

Here’s my card, made to fit for a seven year old:

I debated about the little gems on the four corners of the stamped pink paper. I know Megan LOVES pink and sparkles and everything girly. I just had to add it because I had the feeling she would love it.

The inside was also all “done up.” I made a “stamp” inside. Here is what I mean. I think she’ll like it.

There will be more to come! I’m also hoping to post some funny videos that my little brother and I made over the weekend!

 

School. . . and things :) February 5, 2010

Filed under: Uncategorized — beyondtheoutside @ 8:25 PM

So, I am bad at updating my blog, I apologize. Things have just been crazy. So, some things that have been going on.

I rearranged my room last weekend. That was lots of fun. I was sick of things being the same way because I spend so much time in my room and I just don’t like it anymore. So, single-handedly I moved everything.I think it looks much better and I’m very happy with it! I was, however, very sore the next day.

I started school (yay?). I was getting used to just getting up for work every day, haha. School has been a little nuts. I got my Phi Theta Kappa application in! I am going to be inducted on the 12th of March and I’m excited. Not really because it’s exciting, but more just because it looks good on my UMBC application, which I also turned in! That was so fun. NOT. I didn’t have to write an essay, but then I wanted to apply for Honors (which I don’t think I’ll be accepted into, but it was worth a try) and so I had to write an essay. It wasn’t too bad, but still not exactly fun! Uhm, so I still have to send in my transcripts, SAT scores, and a letter of confirmation that I am in the Phi Theta Kappa at my current school. So, that’s fun I guess. Anyway, my classes. . .

Pyschology: it’s so early! 8 AM is hard to get to class for, haha. My teacher seems really great. She went to school and works at Hopkins. She is into more of the experimental psych as opposed to most teachers who are into applied psych. It is refreshing. She’s young and has been in school for a long time and I think is still in school, so she hasn’t forgotten what it’s like to be a student, you know? It is a big class of almost 45, I think. It’s hard to make sure that you’re noticed, something that I think is really important. I like my teachers to know who I am, know my name, etc. I think it’s good for your grades (brownie points anyone?) as well as getting help if you need a question answered or something. So I try to sit in her line of sight and particpate if there is a chance. It is, however, a lecture, so most of the time it is her talking. I’m okay with that since it is an 8AM so most of the time I don’t mind sitting and listening to someone talk about what I already read in the textbook while I sit on my morning coffee. Boy, 6AM comes early. I’ll be happy when it isn’t dark when I wake up. That really throws me off! All in all, the class is good. I think it will be a some-what easy A. Oh, and there’s this boy that scares me. Call me judgmental, fine. His name is Michael, but I think he’s transexual. He has a girl haircut, wears skinny jeans tucked into UGGs, peacoats, and only girls clothes. He talks like a girl and wears make up too. It’s just plain scary. And, he gets mad if you call him Mike. Hmm. Weird.

Anthropology: This class is okay. It’s in a small classroom and there are a lot of people in it, so that is no fun. My teacher is okay, but kind of strict I think. Anthro reminds me a TON of sociology, so I hope it doesn’t feel too much like that! I get to do 6 more service learning hours. That is actually a blessing because I keep thinking about how I want to go back to that school and volunteer like I did last semester, but I just haven’t had the time. This assignment will allow me to do that. The class seems very easy. His tests are multiple choice and take home essay. They seem really reasonable. He gives you more points on your grade if you test badly but you can, in class, by talking, tell him that you understand the concepts. I tried to get on this guys good side. He is very strict about being there on time. Sometimes, parking is bad and stuff and people are late. I’m glad that I’ll already be there because of Psych before it! There is this kid in that class that is like 6 4, skinny as can be, and quite possibly albino. He always tells the teacher that he disagrees and he is very rude to the teacher. That’s no fun. It makes it tense at times when he is being rude to the teacher and the teacher has to deal with that. Anyway, the class seems fun. I should get to participate and stuff, so that’s fun. Shouldn’t be unreasonably hard to get an A.

Political Science: Well, this class seems good so far. It will be a little bit hard, I think. This class is taught more like it would have been in a public school. I was taught with a classic curriculum, so I’m not used to that, I guess. It’s just a different way of learning. The teacher is good. It’s a lecture class, so that’s a little hard to stay awake through, but he is good. Each week he gives us a “note sheet,” not unlike a sermon outline you might get at church. He talks about each point or set of questions then asks us if we’re following or have any questions. If we don’t, he continues. It just helps us figure out where he was, where he is going, and where he is. My friend Cooper is in the class, so that’s cool. There is a boy in my class who has some sort of mental issue. He sits with his feet on the table and he is always pulling his hair and running his fingers through it. It’s kind of strange. I can deal with it though. But what is truly just annoying is when he starts talking in the middle of class! I said something, commenting on what my teacher asked me, and the kid yells out, “AS IF!!!” because he did not agree with why I thought that Samuel Adams made a certain choice. I just looked around the class and they were all just shocked. He just does stuff like that and he’ll start talking when my teacher is so my teacher had to make a rule of no talking while he is and you have to raise your hand to talk. It kind of makes having discussions hard, but oh well. We also get to do these blog assignments where we go to a political blog post (CNN.com and the likes) and comment 100+ words on a post. We get to do it three times and it’s really fun. Yes, self-proclaimed dork here. I did one and it was fun. I did like 350 words or something, haha. Should be a fun class, but challenging.

Cultural Geography: Ah, last class of the day. This is a fun class! My teacher seems like he should be a minister at a southern baptist church, but he’s definitely not a minister. He’s so fun though and gives lots of extra credit. The class is so fun and I really like it. It’s going to be really hard for me because geography is something I have a lot of trouble with. We have to memorize a lot, and you all know that is not my strong point. It’s difficult. I like my classmates. We have a …strange girl. She read and took 10 pages of notes on the first five chapters of the book before the class started. Then she found out we’re not using that book and we should return it, lol. She’s just like that though, always trying to obviously suck up and look like she’s working way ahead. It’s weird, but whatever. So it’s a fun class! Hopefully I’ll have an A in the class, but it will be worth my work, I’m telling you that!

Math (online): This class is fine. It’s SO easy. I am already just about at the half way mark. I was told by my instructor that I had to stop until I took the first test (which I have to go into school to do). She said she’s never had a student this far ahead πŸ™‚ That was exciting. It’s self-paced pretty much, so that’s cool.I will have an A in that, I’m sure.

Addiction Counseling: Seems good so far, but we haven’t done much yet. I don’t have a good feel for the class so I can’t really tell you what I think of it yet. It seems super easy, but maybe she just hasn’t given us a big assignment yet, I don’t know. Seems like an easy A to me though!

SO, that’s my classes. I’m still working 4 days a week, babysitting at least one time a week regularly, trying to make it to church events regularly, and attempting to have a social life–although a social life is at the very bottom of my priorities right now. I’m also trying to continue to raise money towards China! I am about… 1/5 of the way there… so 4/5 to go. I’m praying, and ask that you would also continue praying for my trip and fund raising. I’m excited about upcoming meetings and things like that. I don’t really know everyone on the trip very well, so it will be nice to get to know them better. I’m working also on trying to find things to do for the summer. I would love to find a regular babysitting job or 2 or 3 rather than get a job. It’s hard to get a job. I don’t want to do retail. I don’t want to do anything with food. That right there limits my options. PLUS, I will have to have those two weeks off for China. So, babysitting is my best bet. Being a summer nanny would be awesome for me. Anyway, that’s that.

Well, that’s a couple little things to update you! I’m still alive, haha. I am trying to keep my blog updated, but it’s hard! Hopefully I will do better as school gets into the swing of things!

Until next time. . .